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26 November 2008 @ 09:39 pm
Fic: 5 Thanksgivings  
Title: 5 Thanksgivings Cordelia Chase Never Had
Author: Livvie (Kelly)
Rating: PG
Category/Characters: Gen (Cordelia, Angel, Fang Gang)
Word Count: 500 (5 x 100)
A/N: Thank Tom Turkey for boy_named_susie for being my ever wonderful beta.


By the time the caterers arrive with the turkey and fixings, her mother has had so many gin and tonics, she goes upstairs complaining of a headache.

Her father never puts the phone down, shoveling forkfuls of mashed potatoes in his mouth between million dollar deals, never once spilling on his imported silk tie.

Cordelia doesn’t dare touch the biscuits. “No carbs!” Her mother had slurred as she stumbled up the stairs. She picks at her turkey, tearing off scraps to feed to her cat. He seems to be the only one giving thanks, rubbing against her leg, purring appreciatively.


She sits in a restaurant, alone, her mind wandering to Doyle in some bar, having a liquid dinner. The only reason they were off was because Angel was in Sunnydale, busy with something else - someone else. Angel didn’t know the meaning of the world ‘holiday.’ Her place didn’t feel like home; a meal from the freezer section didn’t feel like Thanksgiving.

As the waitress unceremoniously drops the plate in front of her with a clatter, Cordelia looks around to the few solo patrons, pulled in tight to keep the world and other people out. All together, and all alone.


Nothing turns out right. Cordy burns the turkey, Fred’s cornbread is sticking to the pan, Wes’ mashed potatoes are lumpy. The table that was supposed to arrive from the rental place didn’t; neither did the chairs. They all have to stand and eat. Choice of dark meat or darker meat from the burnt bird, so dry it’s like eating tree bark.

They'd wanted it to be perfect. Connor’s first Thanksgiving. Still a baby, so he doesn’t know, but Angel broods over the ruined meal. Gunn sneaks out the back. Twenty minutes later he’s back, bags of Chinese food in hand.


She doesn’t know why they let her peer into his head. Maybe because nobody bothered to install cable on the higher plane. She gets to see them all in Angel’s mind, gathered around a table, happy and smiling. The wine was flowing free, the dinner out of a Norman Rockwell painting. That almost kiss. They all eat and drink with no hint of the betrayal, heartbreak or schism that divided them before. Then it all comes crashing down.

She can never bear to watch the end, closing her eyes tight, hoping each time that it might change. It never does.


Time doesn’t matter up here. She thinks maybe three hundred years have passed; it might be five hundred, maybe a thousand. Cordy doesn’t even know if they still celebrate Thanksgiving down below.
They don’t really here either but it’s tradition for them. There is a table, chairs, everyone is sitting around, laughing, talking, at last happy. The table is bigger, some faces barely familiar to her, others that she cherishes as family.

Angel says he wants to freeze this moment, but he says that every time. Hands raised in a toast. At long last, Cordy feels like this is Thanksgiving.
Current Mood: tiredtired
daydreamingone: C/Adaydreamingone on November 27th, 2008 07:46 am (UTC)
Very nice. Sweet and sad :)
Happy Thanksgiving to you!
Kelly: C/A Wafflesxlivvielockex on December 9th, 2008 02:45 am (UTC)
Thank you. Always like to pair the sweet with the sad.

And happy (late) T-day to you too. :)
phantom_queenphantom_queen on November 27th, 2008 01:40 pm (UTC)
Oh, how sweet. Thanks for the present, much appreciated.

Happy Thanksgiving to you too.
Kelly: C/A Wafflesxlivvielockex on December 9th, 2008 02:46 am (UTC)
I figured we needed a little Cordy Thanksgivingness around here. LOL

Happy (late) Turkey Day to you too!
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Kelly: C/A Wafflesxlivvielockex on December 9th, 2008 02:47 am (UTC)
Kind of a shame that in these small stories, Cordy and Angel only get the happy after they are dead. I think that says something about me. LOL
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Kelly: Cordy: Internet Addictxlivvielockex on December 9th, 2008 02:47 am (UTC)
I miss her so much too!

And a happy (late) Thanksgiving to you!
Nikki: ats: c/a the real thingnikkiwawa79 on November 27th, 2008 05:44 pm (UTC)
Dude, I know I just texted you about how much I liked this. But, you had me tearing up, with this, too!! WTF lol I loved seeing it through Cordelia's eyes. Her feelings and everything. That last two are sort of heartbreaking, but in a good way :) Thanks for the treat ♥
Kelly: C/A Wafflesxlivvielockex on December 9th, 2008 02:48 am (UTC)
You need to teach me to give Cordy (and Angel) a happy ending without them being dead. LOL I can't help it!
Deb: CA Spanking Inner Moppetdamnskippytoo on November 28th, 2008 02:42 am (UTC)
Having just sat through a hellacious T-giving *with* tons of family, I kind of envy Cordy's early t-givings. LOL! But that didn't stop me from feeling really sad for her and jumping for joy after reading the last one.

I hope you've got your muse back or at least enough of one to keep feeding us fic like this more often. Thanks, fellow MG, for this sweet gift. ::Mwah::
Kelly: Buffy: Mean Girls1xlivvielockex on December 9th, 2008 02:49 am (UTC)
So late with the replying but I am telling you, next year, Cracker Barrel, all us MGs. It will make life so much easier for everyone.

And I think the muse is creeping back. Probably just for five things. I did Angel's Christmases last year so maybe a fluffy C/A Christmas Five Things this year?
ubiquirkubiquirk on November 28th, 2008 05:45 pm (UTC)
Nice. I esp like the first three, which really capture missing moments of her life.
Kelly: Cordy: Queen Cxlivvielockex on December 9th, 2008 02:50 am (UTC)
Thank you. I really wish Cordy got some kind of back story. Wes, Fred, Lorne, we all got to see their relationships with their parents. Even Angel. But Cordy, nada. Kind of makes me sad.
samsom: fang foursamsom on November 29th, 2008 08:38 pm (UTC)
Poor Cordy, she's had some terrible T-days. But Gunn is awesome with the Chinese and the last one is def my favorite.

I really loved this. :D
Kelly: ATS: AWC Familyxlivvielockex on December 9th, 2008 02:53 am (UTC)
Aww, thank you so much. You know I adore your writing so whenever you like something of mine, it's like this extra little YAY!

I need a ruined/Chinese food Thanksgiving next year. And every year after that. LOL
housem24fan: Angel/Cordelia 3-Waiting in the Wingshousem24fan on December 3rd, 2008 06:53 am (UTC)
So very, very bittersweet....I loved it!
Great fic! :)
Kelly: C/A Comicxlivvielockex on December 9th, 2008 02:55 am (UTC)
Thank you so very much. :)
amanda1516 on December 12th, 2008 07:23 pm (UTC)
I've been dying for some good holiday fic and this satisfied the craving perfectly. The ending was so sweet and I love Gunn going to get Chinese food in the third one.
Kelly: ATS: AWC Familyxlivvielockex on December 15th, 2008 08:48 pm (UTC)
Aww, thank you so much. I really appreciate it. I have another angsty fic I wrote last year for Christmas. But again, really angsty and not at all happy ending-ish. LOL